Mosaic

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Life is a mistake
Like so many of us;
Beautiful, messy, unplanned.

From water-stained pages to ink-stained hands;
teary eyes with red faces;
broken glass & burning houses;
snoring & sex & sugar.

Like so many stars who remain unnamed
and unclaimed by any notorious constellation,
we flicker & smolder & die,
often before anyone even noticed we were there.
Often, without even having left any light behind.

Yet, insistent we burn;
Still, we glow.
Stubborn & stupid & hopeful & graceless;
floundering, bumping into corners, looking
for soft places to land.

Bruised & sticky & awkward.
Needing and wanting,
most of all.

And so full of love.
And so full of pain.
So full of our own brokenness,
warning others not to get too close
lest they end up bleeding
from our sharp wounds,
our damages,
that we can only sometimes manage
to haphazardly cement
back together.

Maybe.

It’s a mistake.
An error.
An imperfection.
An Existence-Essential Anomaly.

Flaws & tantrums & gunfire;
Screaming & dancing,
Singing & praying & painting…

There’s too much to feel;
Too much that needs fixing;
Too much that needs saying;
Too much to ever see or do
half as well as it deserves.

And we still keep going, knowing all this;
Knowing nothing.
Some of us.
Overwhelmed, gasping, laughing, crying.
Smiling.

There is nothing more than this mess.
Nothing more than that hope.
Nothing more than our hearts.

+ Katie +

(Originally written on 11/23/16. Edited at the time of posting.)

Housekeeping!

Yesterday’s post was the first one that I had written in roughly three months, and the first one in awhile that was distinctly religious/spiritual in its subject matter. I’ve been in a creative writing rut for awhile now, but I’ve begun to feel more inspired again in recent weeks. I finally am starting to feel myself permit that mental wandering and exploration of deeper questions once again, and I have some ideas for content that will be posted more regularly as opposed to random and sporadic entries.

For one, I intend to make the “Wordless Wednesday” posts a weekly addition. While the blog’s main focus is on spiritual issues, one’s spirituality is not confined to merely ruminating on issues of theology. I love making things and one of those things I love making is pictures. Art is inseparable from the world of religion and spirituality, so I don’t feel that this is anything remotely off topic. I also paint, so sharing those will not be off limits either.

Secondly, I’ve decided to introduce two different regular series to the blog that are specifically religious in subject. The first is a “Heretic of the Month” feature which will profile a person within the history of the Church who was at any time considered a “heretic”; whether blatantly labeled as such by the Church, or simply someone who presented theological ideas that were new and ambitious, revolutionary, or that threatened the established orthodoxy in some way. The second is a series I’m calling “Secular Saints” which will cover individuals outside of mainstream religion that I feel have added to our spiritual dialogue – whether it be through blatant challenging/questioning that pushes the religious community to think harder & better, their philanthropic work, and/or their artistic contributions.

So there you have it! A brief update on what to expect from this space going forward. I’m looking forward to it :).

+ Katie +